Monday, June 14, 2010

Hope

It's been so long since I last wrote something. Feels like a lifetime. I miss my bloggy friends and more than anything I miss writing!

But today I have to share this something with you. I was feeling really low a while ago. Someone very close to me is going through a very tough phase of life and somehow, his sadness is bringing me down too. You know how it feels when you PERFECTLY understand what the other person is going through and yet there isn't much that you can do other than standing close to that person. For some reason, hope evaded me and believe me, that's happening after quite some time! And then, for the first time I browsed the net for true life inspirational stories. Some of them made me cry, some of them made me smile and some of them made me happy to be alive and well. More than anything, I got the hope I desperately needed. No matter how bad a situation is, there is always a reason behind it and the reason is always such that it makes you stronger as an individual. And in this period I realise the importance of my fellow beings. What am I without the people around me? Seeing miracles around me makes me believe in miracles and because they happen, I want to be the reason to make someone smile just the way someone across the world made me. It's a beautiful feeling, knowing that someone out there is touched by your words and experiences.

So let me share this with you. It is not something big but it gave me the will to fight nonetheless. I have my dance workshop this Sunday and I will be performing two times this time. It will be my first show where I have started my journey as a professional dancer. So, last week, I twisted my ankle and couldn't dance at all. Even walking was sometimes laborious. I went for my classes and sat watching everyone dance. It really pulled me down but guess what, in those moments I realised the beauty and value of the gift I have. I realised how lucky I am to be able to dance and actually express myself the way I want to. This experience made me want to come back with even more zeal than I had before. So I went for my class yesterday with an ankle which hadn't healed fully. But the desire to dance was way stronger, so I decided to give it all I have. But then halfway through the class, someone kicked me in the eye! My contact lens went flying out and I was just super shocked for a moment or two. Yes, I was hurt. Yes, I could have given up. But you know what, that incident made me even more determined to dance. So I danced with one contact lens, an injured ankle and I gave it all I have. By the end of the class, I felt in seventh heaven! I knew that life had tested me and I had done my best. Even though my body was hurting, the pain was sweet. So so sweet. It's the kind of pain you would welcome with open arms 'coz it comes with hard work and determination.

So all my dear friends, all I want to tell you is that hope is never far away. It's just the way we look at it. The moment before you achieve success is the hardest because your patience is tested again and again. But by the very virtue of being a human, all I can say is, the human will can be as strong as we want it to be. If one door closes, it's because a better one is just waiting to be opened! Just because the sun is hidden behind dark clouds, it doesn't mean it doesn't exist.

Have a great day my friends!

Much love,
Deboshree