Yes, life is strange. Yes, life is unexpected. Yes, it baffles me. Yes, it is testing me at every turn!
Just a few days ago my dance instructor offered me probation once again! I can't describe how it feels when such great dancers tell you that you have it in you. When he asked me to do probation, he didn't have any idea that I was offered probation once before and that experience had been ghastly to say the least. But this time he sat with me and told me he would be there for me. He said he would be my mentor and sincerely wanted me to join probation. I was elated and I wanted to try again. But then the previous experience came to my mind, crowding my already unsure mind and making me fumble. I know I have it in me and just when I decided that I will try again, something else happens.
I saw my TISS result today and guess what, I qualified!! That is by no means the end of it. I have to pass the group discussion AND the personal interview and they are the hardest part. But I had not expected to qualify at all! To be very honest, I hadn't prepared one bit and the test was difficult. Well, I guess something short of a miracle has happened.
But will I feel the same happiness that I feel while I'm dancing? Will I feel alive with EVERY pore of my being? Will I laugh like crazy and let go and just enjoy life? Development studies doesn't seem to make way for anything like that.
Some of my friends have made me understand how important it is to follow my dreams and passions. Only that way can I be happy and successful in life. I sincerely thank them for being there for me.
I know the time is coming, the time I have been waiting for. I can sense the change. I know something life changing is about to take place in a matter of a few months. I just hope my heart knows well enough which path to choose.