But things seem to be changing now. It's as if it's not the same anymore. Something's changed. I don't know what exactly it is but it is happening nevertheless. It's as if we are drifting and it really doesn't make a huge difference.
We are two people living in two different cities who fell in love over the net and have met 3 times in the past two and a half years. Yes, it's hard. Yes, it's been worth and no, I can NEVER ever in a thousand years regret falling in love with him.
He is the one person who changed my life and made me what I am today. I wasn't confident. Not at all. I didn't take chances. I didn't dare to step out of the shell I had created around myself. I didn't UNDERSTAND people as much as I do. Basically, I wasn't who I am right now. He taught me not to be judgemental, he taught me that love doesn't judge, love cares, love nurtures,silently understands and demands nothing but love in return. I have no words to show how thankful I am. He loved me when most people wouldn't even THINK of loving me.
Today when I have changed so much, he tells me..Deboshree, you will fly really high. You will reach great heights and really be someone. And that makes me cry...because when I was a simple nobody with no dreams and ambitions, he taught me to fly and today he makes me feel that I will go ahead of him. Beat that!
The saddest part is that I feel we are drifting and things are about to change and I really can't do anything to change them. Maybe I know we will not last, maybe the distance is getting to me, but whatever it is, it makes me sad. Very sad.
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Painfully sad for this woman. The photo shows You share this in a deep way. But when you think about it meeting only 3 times?....
Tom
such turmoil you are experiencing right now - your words beautifully express that feeling and show your inner strength at the same time - it calls to mind something i heard some time ago and that is: "smile/be happy for what was/that it happened/that it began - not sad that it has/or will end" - paraphrased a bit, but i think you can see what it is saying -
oh, and i don't think relationships are all about quantity, but rather quality [ie, tom's remark about having met only 3 times] - but i understand his perspective -
If he helped you see the person of worth you are, then the years apart were worth that and more. People change and sometimes that is the flow of it. I was in a marriage of 19 years, and you really don't have control over people's feelings. Take heart :)
just checking on you over here - thinking of you - take care - jenean
Feeling for you! I hope and wish it will all work out. Communication is the key that can set you free! :)
Cheers
Holli in Ghana
So sorry Debroshee. I hope all works out the way you want it to work out. He sounds like a very special person. We already know you are.
@Jenean- Thank you sooo much for your love and consideration. You are right..quality is what matters and I'm holding onto him!
Had an almost break up and realised that I can't live without him at all! I'm empty without him.
@Nancy- He is verryy special and I'm glad I'm with him.
@Lorna- Thank you so much for dropping by and yes, it is worth it!
@Pale observer- Thanks for dropping by and yes, communication is what we desperately need! I'll go meet him soon.
Thank you all of you for your support and love. It really means a lot.
Love
Deboshree
It made me happy ^_^
Dear Deboshree:
Times as the one you are experiencing is very painful. Maybe some time would work wonders. Pain enables us with different perspectives. Be still and pray.
I wish that this situation changes at the earliest.
Courage and peace always,
Susan
MAY U HV THE BEST IN LIFE....N LET THE WORST FADE AWAY...MAY U SMILE N SHINE TOGETHER...DNT DO ANYTHING STUPID...LET U B IN HIS ARMS FOREVER AND EVEN AFTER THEN....TAKC SONA!!!
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